Numb

I prayed for no feelings

And now I have none.

There is no in between,

No fear and no fun.

I asked for no thoughts

And no anxiety.

Now my heart has turned to stone.

I feel nothing entirely.

Now I wonder alone

In my room as I lay,

Was the price of happiness

A couple sad days?

We are mixtures of beautiful

And ugly emotions,

To feel one is to feel the other,

A cruel but natural notion.

-m.m.jan