Sunsets

The sun sets and

reminds me of the darkness that follows.

The emptiness creeps slowly

as do feelings so hollow.

The lights are out now.

I can no longer see.

I reach out for a hand to hold,

but there’s not one finding me.

I lay in silence contemplating

the vastness of the skies.

As I breathe in all the coldness,

I await a warm sunrise.

-m.m.jan

Numb

I prayed for no feelings

And now I have none.

There is no in between,

No fear and no fun.

I asked for no thoughts

And no anxiety.

Now my heart has turned to stone.

I feel nothing entirely.

Now I wonder alone

In my room as I lay,

Was the price of happiness

A couple sad days?

We are mixtures of beautiful

And ugly emotions,

To feel one is to feel the other,

A cruel but natural notion.

-m.m.jan

A Winter Woe

You are the winter.
But darling do know,
that as cold as you are
you are nothing like snow.

In blocks of ice and glaciers
you repress all your emotions.
A forbidding persona is what you are.
You froze up all my oceans.

Your presence is piercing
like icicles
that scar the soul so deep.

No fire on earth can soften all the sorrow
that you keep.

-m.m.jan

Silent Goodbye

In an empty room I stand

Talking to you my friend.

We mention memories from our youth

and stories from the past.

Oh, how it all went by so fast.

Our humors and laughters when we were so young,

The pictures we painted and songs we once sung.

I smile as I realize the tears in my eyes.

I turn around and see nothing but lies.

I find my own echoes and pitiful dreams,

I have been alone in this room for many years it seems.

You tiptoed off so discreetly

Out of this empty room.

Leaving me in the past is your intention, I assume.

You did not even bother a glance at the door,

A friendly farewell is all I ask for.

-m.m.jan

Diving into Infinity

Infinite shades of wonderful blue.

From dark to darker,

The scene before me grew.

Holding my breath as

I dive in the sea,

The secrets within

Are unveiled to me.

The water gets cooler

The deeper I go.

A vastness of peace.

In the ocean I flow.

-m.m.jan

Rebirth

I sometimes remember the old me,

The people pleaser I used to be.

I look upon those dark years

And remember all of my tears.

By trial I had figured out

The reasons behind all the doubt.

A realization I’m glad I soon achieved

I must please myself first, I strongly believed.

As I bloomed and discovered my value and worth,

My soul grew and flourished in this wondrous rebirth.

-m.m.jan

Symphony

Whispering softly,

The wind tells me its secrets

With every breeze it blows.

I close my eyes and

listen closely to the dance of the leaves

Twirling in the air,

And the symphony of the wind singing everywhere.

-m.m.jan